boston

i hate being emotional. i've been so emotional the whole day, and now i'm at the tip of my emotional iceberg. and to think, i'm not even pms-ing right now. i don't even know whats wrong. it's just one of those days. i really need to talk to someone right now. Izat, i need you!

Augustana knows how i feel.

i need a break,
ctnurul. 

red yellow green

i had my first driving lesson today, and not to brag but, i kicked ass! :D only my 2nd time ever driving, first time with a manual car, and i managed not to crash into any cars, poles, nothing. and the instructer, who kept on cracking jokes, said i did great for my first time :):) the only hard part was turning the freaking steering wheel, the wheel was so hard, my palms were as red as a tomato by the end of the 3 hour lesson. but nonetheless, i did well, i so totally proved my parents, who said i couldnt drive, wrong.

im famished right now. like really really famished. i need food. waiting for the parentals to get home, then probably gonna head out for dinner, for like the third time in the last 3 days.

so tmrw im going out with Izat, and maybe Farahin, if she can make it, to pyramid. i can't wait to watch Happy Feet tmrw! i've been obsessed with watching that movie ever since i saw the trailer on tv. my current desktop wallpaper is of the charachter Mumble from Happy Feet, its so adorable! my desktop wallpaper before this was WorldOfWarcraft (WoW), the best game ever invented. i haven't played since like July or sumthing like that and i miss the game so much. gonna return playing my beloved character Orkid in January, when the new expansion pack comes out. the new year is looking good people!

im getting fond of this blog and im starting to want to write more and more stuff everyday. im not sure how many of you people out there in the internet world actually read this blog, if there are any, but heres the story behind TwoHeadedFish. its made up of me, Ct Nurul, and my friend, Eka. i thought of setting up a new blog (had a few before but none of them really lasted), but i didn't wanna do it alone, so i invited Eka to share the blog with me. and she said yes! so i set up an account here at blogger and all that was left was the name. we had a few ideas, but they just didn't sound quite right for us. so i came up with Two Headed Fish. i was actually joking at first but it stuck, it was perfect for us. see we were both born under the sign of Pisces, which is usually represented with a symbol of a fish. and since theres two of us, so why not two headed fish? thats it. and the human sucking vacuum cleaners bit is an inside joke Eka and i share about how the world would be if we were the ones running it. girls can dream right? :)

parentals are back,
gotta go get ready.
take care people !

signing out,
its ctnuruuuuul.

baby steps

last night was crazy ! not the good crazy, it was more like omgwhatthehellisgoingon-crazy. there should be a rule about these kinds of things, but then again people never pay much attention to rules, so nvm. i think im okay right now, yeah i am ok. but maybe theres still a little part inside of me that is still freaking out, at least a tad bit. CT, stop making a huge deal out of an extremely, ok maybe not extremely, small issue. this is what watching too much of hollywood sictoms does to me. ok so we agreed, baby steps right? ok, left foot, right foot. ok ok i can get the hang of this, i can right? can't i? ok ok i can, yes i can. ok im gonna shuttup.

stop being a baby,
ctnurul.

Giddy-Up.

MERRY X'MAS, EVERYONE!

*mwah mwah, hugs*

believe it or not, I actually bought my mom a Christmas present! *to bodek her, that is.*



(hoping that she'll never read this, or Ct's previous blog),
Eka, and I think I'm such a troublesome.

Ho Ho Ho

excuse me while i burp, just devoured an extremely tiny chicken burger from good ol Mc'donalds. bless my parents for bringing home food for their starving daughter but i just dont get why they can never get the difference between a normal chicken burger and a McChicken. almost 17 years of eating at Mc'donalds and they still cnt get the hang of it. thank god they have me to guide them thru the confusion that is the Mc'donalds menu.

Eka came by my house a while ago so i could talk to her mum. turns out she told her mum she'd be going out with me when actually she was going out with her boyf. so i had to talk to her mum to convince her that her very trustworthy daughter was out with me. haha, good thing she bought my lie. thats what you get Eka for lying to your mum! haha not that i havent done it before, i mean who hasnt? not proud of it but a little white lie once in a while never hurt anyone right? :)

i watched Borat and Eragon, both on dvd a few days ago. gotta say, Borat was just as much, if not more, disgusting as it was funny. i'd be tottally pissed if i was from Kazakhstan. i laughed the hardest during the scene where Borat was at the social dinner, and was complimenting the two ladies sitting next to him, "In my country, they would go crazy for these two." then he pointed to another lady sitting across the table, "This one... not so much." haha, gotta give Sacha Baron the thumbs up. a must watch if youre into crude humour and things that are just plain crazy. Eragon on the other hand could just possibly be the next, maybe less exciting Lord Of The Rings. its the first story in a three(i think) part trilogy, exactly like LOTR. the storyline is fairly interesting, the graphics are simply awesome, and newcomer, Edward Speleers who plays Eragon did pretty well, and hes not too bad on the eyes either. i havent read the book yet so i cant say much about how the movie portrayed the book but hopefully the directors did justice to it. the only real problem i have with the movie is the soundtrack. Avril Lavigne? i have nothing against her but it just doesnt suit the movie at all. the soundtrack is a major thing for every movie, and Eragon really fell short. Ok im done with the movie reviews. cnt wait to see Charlotte's Web and The Holiday.

tmrw i've got my first driving lesson! im excited and terrified at the same time. i've never, i repeat never driven a car before. see my dad is afraid im gonna crash into sumthing and he's gonna end up having to pay for it. so tmrw will be my first time. and on wednesday, if things go as planned, ill be going out with Izat and Farahin, Atika if she can make it and if Sha isnt working, her too. i so desperately wanna see Happy Feet and i gotta get out of this house. im bored outta my mind sitting at home every single day with nothing to do but stare or scream at the tv or computer. if only they could talk back, things would be a little more interesting then, wouldn't they? im hoping to go to OU since i havent been there in like forever but considering the amount of money i have on me now, looks like it'll be Pyramid once again. well at least i can drop by and see Qasim at work. :)

my fingers/palms are starting to sweat, this always happens. yes its disgusting, i know. its a condition called Hyperhidrosis, so bear with me. its when your sweat glands are tend to sweat more than your body actually should, but for me it only affects my palms and sumtimes feet. so i guess my condition isnt extreme, but its still kindda uncomfartable at times. theres a surgery that can fix the sweaty palm problem but i think ill stick to baby powder for now.

this entry is starting to get long,
i think im gonna stop for now.

signing out,
ctnurul.

Merry Christmas people,
hope Saint Nicholas(Santa) brought lotsa gooddies,

be safe and Ho Ho Ho !

Yaayh!

Dear Ct, if we ever go online on MSN, I'll explain it to you according to what I know, okay? :)

So my earlier blog was too carried away with my mood yesterday. I was pressured. And still am.

But wtv. I had fun yesterday. Not to mention, only 20 people showed up, which at first I counted my invitation cards are for 30 people. The so called 'friends gathering' was supposed to be a high-tea gathering, but in a sudden, it became a 'dinner party!'. Started at 5. Aisya appeared the earliest! Then Didie, Sheedot, and Shazia. Later were Shukri, Nabila and Fara. And there goes Naim, El, Nili and Acap. That was at 6.18pm. Farid reached at 6.38pm.

While ALAN, GOREY, LALA, and AIZAT, came at 8.30, people! (: So punctual, kan? haha. By the time they reached pun, everyone was like mengantok and penat already. ;p I was the one and only super hyper homo.



The Alan's gang and my girlfriends with Farid.



See! that's my pretty bestfriend(with the cap), and our close guy friends.



Behold people! That's a new sculpture in my house and it's pretty isn't it?


Winners for Malaysia's Best Nyahs!
From L-R: Acap, Naim, Zhaff, Shukri.

Enjoy looking at the pictures!

Eka.

It's Hard To Make You Remember Me

My mum is undecided.

All credits are given to my brother. Why is there a gap? Shouldn't it be equaled? Why, why why?

One time she'll say this, another time she'll say another thing. So she's really trying so hard to re-programme my mind? And change everything to something that I don't believe? W.H.Y M.E?

I wish I can write everything down here, but I guess I am more like 'oh, she knows how to bottled up her thoughts and feelings now.'

And keeping everything to myself does not help me at all.
I need to go, I really need to go, far away from this place.

I wish I can dissapear in a second, right at this moment, right now, now.



Look, there's another bird in a cage!,
Eka.

three titties?

im freaking exhausted ! i cnt believe how much stuff i have in my room, its so gonna take forever to get all this stuff packed. im taking a break now, listening to Ryan Star, typing this blog entry and reading Eka's new entry. and Eka, i ddnt get the 'your mother has three titties' joke!!

tmrw is Reen's/Azrin's 17th birthday. we've been gd friends and we've had our fights, BIG fights i might add, bt whatevs, thats done and in the past, 0-0 right dude? i promised a movie+popcorn+coke birthday treat for you tmrw bt i just found out i have a 3hour driving class tmrw. i'll make it up to you nxt week!

Xmas is 3 days away and yeah i knw im not allowed to celebrate it bt i love seeing all the christmas trees decorated in red, green and white. it all looks so merry and warm. and all the presents from Santa Clause are just bound to put a smile on your face. i remember celebrating xmas and singing xmas carols bck when i ws living in the states. the mistletoes, the decorations and the presents we'd put up in school. the houses down the streets with the snow falling on the big trees outside their houses, forming a bed of white clouds on the rooftops, providing a great backdrop to all the christmas lights and decorations on the houses. not celebrating the holiday dsnt meant you cnt appreciate the effort the ppl who do celebrate the holiday put in to bring out the joy of the holiday. now on to a holiday i can celebrate, Hari Raya Haji, im not exactly sure when it is, bt i knw its near. Izat and Atika will be going bck to their 'kampung's to celebrate, where as ill be staying here in Subang, not tht im complaining, believe me. 24 freaking hours crammed into a car once a year during Hari Raya Aidilfitri is once too many.

and after all the holidays, we're on to New Year's Eve! i still havent gotten a plan sorted out on what to do, bt im not gonna have myself spend New Years at home this year, now way in hell!

the vacuum cleaner is calling my name,
love, ctnurul.

and Eka, explain tht joke to me!

Eat Your Heart Out!

Well, I can't sleep because I slept all day. I'm watching a Shakira video and doing Shakira booty shakes in my room. Haha.

I drove all the way to Hartamas with Didie and Sheeda, yesterday evening. It was all my last-minute plan! But it was worth it, though! The place there is more crowded and busier during the night time, so we planned to go during the day time. Results: I bought 2 new dresses and 1 new top, which cost me only RM150 for only 3 items! Told ya it's worth it. (:

Anyhoos, can't wait for tomorrow. Hope everything will turn out great. *fingers cross*

I have changed my private myspace profile to public view already. Why on earth do I want people to judge me on the way I look only? Bang me. I should have thought about that earlier.

"Your mother has three titties. One's for milk, one's for water, and the other one's out of order!" HAHAHA. Ok, hit me. Sorry, I find it funny though. LMAO.

I love this one. "Surround yourself with people that will lift you higher."--Oprah Winfrey

Okay, guess that's all! Will update about tomorrow! (:


You know you gonna love tomorrow, (hope so)
Ekan.

:)

i knw i said i'd be back with a full report on the prom, well fyi i typed a full blog entry abt it, then my computer restarted by itself, crappy huh? that pretty much killed it so chances are im not gonna re-write the entry, unless im completely bored and have absolutely nothing better to do, which is usually my situation but dont get your hopes up :)

so i thought since i havent entered a blog entry for almost a week(even longer for you eka!), i'd do one tonight. if you cnt tell by the way im typing tht i am really in a hyper mood, there i told you :) i had a totally-worth-smiling day today! went out to pyramid and had a fun time. the great company probably made it even better. watched the movie Barnyard, it wsnt really a laugh-until-i-cry movie, more on the lines off bore-me-until-i-die, but tht ws a minor detail so it ws ok. i played pool for the first time since almost like forever. i still sucked at it, believe me i did, lol but it ws so fun, and i had a good teacher :) Atika and her boyf met us up at the pool room and joined us for a game. stopped by Topshop and Miss Selfridge to see Sha and Azrn working. ran into a number of ppl today, and i saw Intan/Ira, who i havent seen in like forever, shes so adorable. went bck around 7 and couldnt stop myself from smiling. im such a girl, :)

you must be thinking nothing can ruin my prefect little day, well youre right. well, abt 99% right. someone totally just pissed me off, and yeah i still am pissed as hell. but hell no, its not gonna ruin my awesome day, so go piss off someone else will ya? :) thank you !

it is now 2 am and im actually kindda sleepy. i think im gonna head for the bed now.
gdnite world! ;)

-ctnurul

FOURIAN PROM

i cnt write a full blog right now but just had to drop by and say prom last night was the bomb ! to everyone who came, thanks for making the prom a success and to those who didnt make it, you missed out on a hell of a good time.

will be back with a full report,
ctnurul !

Sawadikap!

So I am here, blogging all the way frm Bangkok. Thanks to mum for bringing along her wireless laptop. But wtv. This place sucks, on the maximum level. Anyways, yesterday's girls day out has been cancelled. Nevermind, we can always have another one next time. I really have nothing to blog about. In the meantime, I am wondering what my friends are doing right now. And prom IS tonight! (curses. swears.)

Note to self: THIS PLACE SUCKS.
Thannnnk goodness, I'm coming back on this coming Saturday, early in the morning! (:

Boredom makes me cry without tears.

I think I miss studying, for once in my life.
I'm serious.

Oh yeah, just a simple happy birthday wish to my everdearest friend, Nabila Sharuddin! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! (: You should be proud of being the YOUNGEST among all of our friends! Love yahh!

vacuum cleaners

hey blogger. so im here, with my speakers blasting, in the middle of cleaning up my room. starting to put things into boxes, getting ready for the move. im gonna miss this house, bt i love the new one too. the new house is bigger and in a better neighbourhood, more quiet and relaxing. bt im gonna miss living in Subang. everything is here. and ive lived in this house since i was 9. now im 17. omg, thts like 8 years. ;( its all bittersweet i guess. moving to Kota Kemuning will put me closer to my best friend Izat, thts one thing im looking forward to. so i still have a million things to pack in my room, ive only just filled two shoe boxes. i was going through some boxes and came across 'the box'. you knw the box tht everyone has, where you keep your memories, all those crappy yet memorable things. got me a tad bit emotional and nostalgic there.






(long sigh)

ok wtv. moving on ! yesterday i went out (like finally !) with Atika to Midvally. bought a top from Miss Selfridge, a bottle of delicious perfume, and found my prom dress(yeay)! i ddnt buy the dress yet though, wanted to get Mummy's approval first. she can be so picky with the type of clothes i wear. i'll probably be getting it tomorrow, so excited, considering prom is just two days away! :) my first and last high school prom. its gonna be so fun !

tmrw a have a date with Eka, Shka, and Sashoe. Lala was supposed to join us, bt unfortunately she cant make it, maybe next time eh Lala? i hvnt really asked the parentals for permission to go out yet, but i think it'll be ok.

gotta get back to my vacuum cleaner,
ctnurul !

007

I dreamt of Paul Walker.

Don't ask me why him. I don't know why either.

I watched The World Is Not enough on thursday, and wacthed Die Another Day on Friday, and yes, Casino Royale, on Saturday.

So James Bond is really really stunning, I must say.

Just a piece of information, I don't like watching love stories or stories about happy steady relationship.

And since last Wednesday, I kept came across with these numbers on my cellphone's digital clock:
11.11
21.21
03.03
22.22
and previously, 20.20

I love yesterday, cause I actually bought 4 dresses and a bag, which cost me *fucking big amount of number* RM 450! But I want more. And I wanna give a try on wedges maybe.

This website here, http://www.trent.blogspot.com/ is pretty much my favourite nowdays. I quote them 'Everybody's business is my business.' Harharhar.

-ekan.

random

new layout! :) and i like it.

i ws trying to edit the old posts but i had trouble so i ended up deleting one of my posts. the review on The Killers album. so ill just repost it here;

"I am a huuuuuge fan of The Killers and now Ive fallen in love all over again. Their new album, 'Sam's Town', is so totally worth the wait. Ok the new album has been out for awhile now but I just heard the whole album today, and if you're a Killers fan and thought 'Hot Fuss' was awesome, 'Sam's Town' is just gonna blow your mind. I gotta admit when I heard the first single 'When You Were Young', I was pretty skeptical about the feel of the song and how the album was gonna turn out. Plus Brandon's new facial hair, hmm, lets just say I wasnt too fond of it, at all. But wtv, not the point. The sound was extremely different from 'Hot Fuss' which had a disco feel to it, with the synthesizers and all, I had no idea what to expect from 'Sam's Town'. But 'When You Were Young' started growing on me and when I heard the whole album, my take on it completely changed. The songs seem more mature and have a certain 'epic' feel to it, musically and lyrically. My favourite track is 'For Reasons Unknown', its about releasing you've fallen out of love. Or something like that. You can tell how much the band(and Brandon's moustache) has grown and Brandon's vocals sound amaaazing. Im still not over the moustache thingy but I spent the whole day listening to their songs over and over again, so that says something. So Im telling you if you haven't gotten hold of the album yet, DO IT NOW! You won't be dissapointed."

random fact abt me; im an insect/creature-phobic. its not a real word but you get wht it means. i hate them i hate them. last night there was this like HUGE beetle in my bathroom. and then while i ws watching re-runs of Entourage, a fucking cicak ws on my ceiling. i freaked. it moved along the ceiling for about an hour, then it jumped! yes, JUMPED from the ceiling onto the floor. it made a 'cluck' sound. with its beady eyes bulging out of its head, omg. it ran out the door the the cracks after tht, thank god. i quickly blocked the cracks with some old books. i ws paranoid the whole night, thinkings it might somehow find its way bck into my room. ughh, it gives me nightmares just thinking abt it.

im out for now.
-ctnurul

way overdue

Ok so i hvnt blogged in like forever. Spm is over, school is over. I hv officially graduated from the hell they call high school. Bfr, i cldnt wait till the day came, bt now, i guess it is kindda bittersweet, like 90% sweet and 10% bitter. So ok i did hv a few good times in highschl. I met a few great ppl worth remembering till my burial day. Bt I am so ready to get on with life, in the REAL world. And prom is like 2 weeks away. I so need to get my prom dress. And make sure tht Eka and Shka will be going too. You guys jst hv to go!

I think i hv a problem. Like mentally. No, im not mentally retarded. I jst think too much. Like wayyyy to much for a 17 y/o. I shld be caring abt clothes and boys, bt here i am thinking abt god knws wht. Ever thought abt the world? Or at least yr country? No, not abt wht Malaysia has bt like really think. Wht makes a country? -The people. Honestly, ive nvr been too fond of Malaysia. Its a beautiful country, if you take the time to appreciate it and take it all in. Bt there ws always something tht ddnt feel right. This may not apply to all, bt the people here arent welcoming. Hv you ever walked into a store and hv someone greet you with a 'Good Morning' and not just because they had too, or because they were trying a new cheesy pick up line? And how abt the stuck up vibe ppl send off? I mean seriously, wth? The fact tht ppl arent openminded towards other ppl. Its so dissapointing, its sick. You ppl are gonna think im a traitor to my own country talking like this bt its just how i feel.

Ok hm enough with my random ranting, I need to get my room cleaned. Recycle all the books, vaccum the floor, tidy up my closet. And start packing up my things, im moving in like 2 weeks!
Im off to play The Sims, its all i hv now since my mom is refusing to pay for my WOW bill. Hmph, bye twoheadfish !

-ctnurul

Imma bird! Imma bird!

YAY! SPM is finally over. Actually I have done with mine since last Thursday, but it feels more like a real FREEDOM since most of my friends finish theirs by today, at 3.30pm. Now that I am relived about no more school and no more 25 minutes (ONLY!) rehat, 2 periods of add math, 2 periods of physics every thursday, no assembly every monday morning, but seriously, I'm gonna miss the people, including the makcik canteen!

So here are some things I need to do during this LONG haul of break:
1. Get my hair done.
2. Clean my 'territory' at home. They are all piled up and look more like a tropical jungle to me.
3. And then recycle all the books. I save the tree, okay!
4. Shopping for God's sake.
5. I deserve a holiday, kan kan! At least ONE trip to somewhere other than home.
6. Hang out with people I've promised to go out with.
7. No seriously, I need to hang out and get a life MORE. I am almost rotten staying at home, aye!
8. If mummy wants to pay for the prom ticket, then I might show up on the Dec 14.
9. Car racing with EL! :)
10.Slim down my tummy and big fat arms! :/ *boohoo*
11.Work and earn some money! Then get my gadgets!

There's a lot more actually but seriously I can't wait for the prom (if jadi lah!) hahaha.

Oohyeah, by the way, I like glasses.

Glasses are sexy. I think guys wearing glasses are sexy.

Especially guys who don't usually wear glasses, only on rare occasions

and suddenly they exert this powerful aura of intellect, mystery, and significance kinda look.

Hellllooooo...? Oh. My. God. Somebody, hold me! haha.